It's not all that bad I suppose. I'm certain that somewhere somebody will read that last post and think "Hey what am I chopped liver?" and no you're not. I'm just feeling really down right now. There are people who care about me. I'm certain that at times I really am quite important to people. My parents, my brother, some subset of my friends, the cat thinks I'm quite the thing as I'm typing this. It just feels very much like right now I'm doing all the reaching out to the world and if I stopped nobody'd notice. I won't stop. Because, well maybe nobody'd notice and I'd be right. Or maybe people would notice and think I wanted to be left alone, and I'd think I was right anyhow. It's all very dumb and self centered and I know it. Everybody's got stuff to do. Everybody has a life. Everyone's life doesn't revolve around me, nor should it.