feeling chaotic today. vacillating from happy to angry to sad to confused and back again in random orders. I was pretty determined last week not to go to lunch with the bitchy women's group today. It appears I won't have to decline the invite because either they aren't going or they aren't going to ask me to go along. Normally they have left by now. This makes me happy, as I don't have to justify my decision to them...but sad because apparently I don't matter enough to invite anymore. I think I will just be happy about it. I could use a few things to go good today. Got stopped by the same train twice today. Once at 13th and Ridgewood and once down town. It was going really slow. Somebody broke my box over at Dodge. I have to go fix it. I hate that...it isn't like I mess with their computers while they aren't there. Why do they mess with mine? Oh yeah.. it has a writer.. that gives them some sacred rights to it. UGH. I don't want to be here today..but I can't think of much else I would rather be doing. Well maybe having a job I like. I guess this is enough chaotic rambling for now since I am sure this isn't making much sense at all.